the one

National Service changed me in every way
i have never thought that i will ever be this responsible
never did i ever thought i can have a say
and never did i thought that what i say makes a difference
just a small simple decision i make
can change who the show is being run
of course under the supervision of my superiors
but when they are not around
some one have to take charge

National Service have made me a better man
many might not have known about my love story
i took a dramatic split up in the midst of training
yes emotions did run wild and crazy
everyday seems gloomy but i managed
i learnt how to control it and move on
yes maybe love is what i seek
but if it is not fate - then it will not happen

National Service made me a stronger man
emotionally and physically
i have managed to separate my life in two
my public and my private of course
things that can be shown and some that can't
i have learnt to hide sensitive emotions
although most of the time it requires patience
and a lot of time and though have to incur simultaneously
i still keep a strong face, as if nothing is wrong
as if life have never been better for me
physically fit - lately have been priority number two
although it is keep not at its highest priority
i still try to keep an maintain a good shape
like they all say in major industries
it doesn't matter how your personality is
everyone will judge you from your first impression
and what comes first is definitely your appearance.

National Service made me see life clearly
what do i do after this two years
where am i going and what is my next step
i have it all laid out now
and now its time to take it step by step
and let the plan all roll out as planned

National Service made me gain others trust
trust have been something difficult foe me to gain
especially when its way back seven years ago
and although the independent life in polytechnic
have me gained some trust
i was still hesitant to fully trust my life on some one else
now i can see clearly that one can trust me with their life
and i have managed to leave my trust to someone else
yes it is still a picky situation - not all can be fully trusted
but i have learnt that i can never have time for myself
if i don't learn to give my trust to others
and yes, it feels like a whole load of burden is unloaded
from the pit of my stomach

National Service gave me time to test market
its a big world out there
and to see where i stand i put myself as a test subject
and see how far i can go by doing certain actions
every actions have been perfectly planned
and i can already see and roughly gauge
the standings after what i have done
and even when working in a government service agency
is not part of my fifteen year roll out plan
working environment would still be the same
wherever else i am heading to
and i can foresee a better future ahead of me
hopefully you will pray for me that i will right

National Service gave me a chance to meet new people
this world have a total population of seven billion
and no two personality and life is the same
i managed to get to know different types of people
people who has more than one house in singapore
people who drives a car as if he's riding a bike
people who doesn't know how to go shopping
people who lives in their world and nothing else matters
people who is only there when you need them
people who love to give you problems instead of solving it
people who is always by our side when you need them
people who cares so much about what i think
people who are workaholic
people who is a love magnet
and the scope get bigger everyday
and everyday i meet a interesting new side of them
i will never get bored in this place

National Service thought me how to play games
they say it sucks being me
its like in camp - i am mr know it all
and that i have to know every single shit that goes around
lest just say this fire fighting gaming system
it is still at its amateur stage
and hopefully by the time i step out of camp
someone else will completely inherit what i know


National Service is like experiencing life in two years
full speed ahead
but i haven't regret a single move i did during my service
i am three quarter way to the Finnish line
lets take it slow and embrace the moment while it still last
i know one day i will look back at this time and say
'i miss days in serve my National Service in camp'

i am the instructor
i am the commander
i am the one

Śukriyā

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